Friday, July 20, 2007
not exactly happy, not exactly sad.
im sure many of us are in a situation like this where there isn't really a word to describe how you feel.
i can find many reasons to be happy for,
but there are even more reasons why i shouldnt be happy for the stuff that i should be happy for.
hard to explain,
for example.
i should be happy because my life is better then the others, but on the hand i should not be happy because there are more things that i can do to make my life better.
i don't know if you guys get what i mean, its more of a- you should do something else instead of doing this or that.
my english is deteriorating, i cannot even express myself - upsetting.
i wonder if i am really a better person right now, or i have not changed.
what if being yourself is really not beneficial for you, but being a hypocrite is better choice then being yourself.
what if you knew that following your logic would benefit you but you have to give away your emotions and feelings?
how come we are always on this thin line, going back and forth. putting on and off our mask.
oh no! i sound so deep. - deepshit.
moody july.
maybe when august come, i would be able to kill my emotions and become emotionless monster.
im sleeepy-
dumbass ranting with tons of grammatical errors that has no purpose.